Exciting milestones!

Today, I can definitely say, was a great one. I write this as an N driver! Once I have my own car, I'm officially free as a bird. All I have to do is work my butt off this summer and next year, and then I'm good.

I was thinking today about milestones. Turning 1, then 3, then 5, then 10... They're all big ones when you're young. And then you hit your teens, 13, 16 (and your L license), 17 (your N), 18 (voting and a legal adult), and 19.

Being able to drive on your own is just one of those huge markers in your life, when you realize you're growing up! For me, this year will be a big one... A summer on my own entirely, a full time job, being able to drive... And this fall, my last year of highschool. It's crazy, how fast it all moves...

One Week until Summer!

So, interesting developments! I now have a summer job running all teen events for the summer. It's not really what I want to do in my heart, really, I just want to go home for a month.

But, what're you going to do? I have to have work over the summer, so I can afford a car next year. I need one, for going to university.

Ah well, I'll stop worrying as best I can and just roll with it.

Hey... I'll be living on my own for 8 weeks! And then off to Ontario. Hopefully things are interesting.

Sunsets in McNeill

What a sight, hmm? These gorgeous sunsets of the past few days make me like to sit outside and ponder.

What's new, you may ask... Well, okay, truth be told... I know you don't ask! Since precious few people read this pathetically sad excuse for a blog.

New? I'm searching for summer work, living every day through school as I sit impatiently indoors, waiting for summer to hurry up and get here.

At the moment it feels very much like my life is moving much too quickly for me to get a handle on, and also entirely too slow. As per usual, I'm a contradiction! I want summer to hurry and arrive, but also take its time so that I can wait and savour my last days of nice and simple Grade 11. I feel as though I'll be completely swamped in Grade 12 all too soon, but I want to hurry and get out, in order to go into university!

There are times when it all feels so completely complicated and consuming... but then all I need to do is stop for a moment, and watch the sun set, or look at the stars, or even just close my eyes and breathe... and it all melts away. It's silent and still, just for one frozen moment in time.

And then, of course, the sun sets completely, or the stars continue on their spiraling way, or someone yells at me to make sure I'm still alive. And it's lost, and I'm back on my harried way.

I think the crucial thing is always to stop and catch those moments whenever possible, keep them close and hold them to you when you need a little peace. I know, it's a hard thing to keep in your mind from day to day... but SOMETIMES I can stay slightly more sane with it! Mostly though, I'm just simply crazy.