Sunny Skies and the Beginning of Summer!

And here we are again! I discovered today to my great shock that someone other than myself has actually looked at this blog. I always thought those views were just me! Imagine my surprise that 12 people actually saw this sorry excuse for an online word outlet a couple days ago. How, you may ask, did I know those views weren't me? Well, dear viewer... turns out I have been a bad bad blogger once again. I don't think I've ventured anywhere near this site for close to 3 months! Haven't had the guts to post in quite some time.

I believe the last time I wrote, it was September! God, how time flies. I'm now finished that first year of university - it was long and incredibly short at the same time. I learned and saw so much in so little time! Made some incredible friends, and met some amazing people. I can't wait to see what next year brings me... it's sure to be one hell of a ride, that's certain.

As of now, I'm back in McNeill working for the summer. I'm back at the harbour, and I think it's a good thing. Terrible for my social life (well, actually, life period), but it's steady and guaranteed work. Plus, I live rent free for a couple months while I'm in the townhouse. At the end of June, my family moves, finally leaving the townhouse and McNeill, while I rent for the last 2 months of summer. Luckily, an old neighbour from Echo Bay has agreed to rent me their trailer while they are out running their fishing lodge for July and August.

In any case - I'm writing this at work... laid up with a sprained ankle, would you believe it? But I'll write some more later.

Wherever you are - I'm wishing you sunny skies and good health from the beautiful North Island!

Life as a University Student

Here I am, sitting in my friend's kitchen - procrastinating, as usual. I figured I'd post for a second and get my brain thinking about something other than "Do Primates Have Culture?". Although a fascinating topic - it really is - I am so tired of writing. By Monday I need to take a Psych quiz, complete two English assignments, do Math homework, finish reading my Sociology, and write a 500 word opinion essay on "Do Primates Have Culture?" for Anthropology.

Gone are those days when homework was a joke, (homework was classwork!), and tests are done in this manner:

"Oh, we have a test today? Huh. News to me. Okay, well, let's wing it and see how that goes!"

Yeah. I miss that time! High school now feels idyllic, a lost paradise, or a secret garden of never needing to work at my courses. I'm being challenged and that's exciting, but at the same time, there are days when you have so much due at the exact same time, that things are just overwhelming.

Cheers, until next time, I remain your overworked professional procrastinator.

"Bummer Summer"!

So, as the CBC says - "it's looking like a bummer summer!". The weather's been absolutely terrible, wet, cold, and miserable. I've been soaked pretty near constantly, especially since I work outside.

Probably because of the weather, we've been kind of slow at the McNeill Harbour. Hiltje was saying that the last two days have looked like March instead of July, the Harbour has been so empty and quiet. It's been really lovely actually, to see all the boaters who I know really well.

Anyway... not too many plans on the go, other than I'm trying to head home to Kwatsi for my mom's birthday. Hopefully I make it home Sunday, stay Monday (her birthday...), and come back on Tuesday so I can go back to work Wednesday. I'm just managing to take one day off work for the trip, so cross your fingers that it's not too windy for me!

Summer! Maybe?

Well, graduation has been and gone, I'm accepted into UVic, and most of that stress is gone!

I was hired to work at the Port McNeill Harbour for the summer, so I'm dockhanding. As I keep saying - "Who knew Kwatsi Bay was work experience?". The work has been good - I really enjoy seeing all the people. It's pretty tiring though, and the downer is that I never see any friends anymore, which really sucks. I miss them all, but my schedule only gives me Sunday and Monday off... not really what everyone else has! Because I need to be up at 6 am, I'm pretty limited in how late I can be out as well.

But the time has been flying by, I'm still reeling slightly from Grad... I almost feel as if September will roll around, and someone will pop out and go "Just kidding! Go back to highschool!". It doesn't quite feel real yet.

So that's it - just a very quick update... Cross your fingers for decent summer weather for us, it's been awful!

Absolute Sping Insanity!

Quick update... things are crazy! As you could probably tell from the title of this blog update... Can I still call it a blog without snickering at myself at this point? It's truthfully the poorest excuse of a blog that anyone's ever seen.

Regardless, between school, boyfriend, grad, scholarships, my future university, and then just my normal school... It is, well, let's say not entirely lazy. I think I've never been so stressed out, freaked out, excited, and feeling like I'm flying in a million pieces at once. Hopefully, once May rolls around all I'll have to worry about is school, grad, and boyfriend. Ah, for the glory days when life was simple! As I said on nearly every birthday when I was asked if this was the best year yet... "Three was best. Five was pretty good, but three was the best." At this point I'm seriously missing the mud pie, blocks, lego, watching fish over the dock days. The octopus touching, gunny hunting, squirrel-house-making days. Those days seem pretty awesome, now that I'm filling out tax returns, applying to universities, etc.

Life changes, and we adapt as best we can I guess! Excuse my pessimistic tone today... this is just me freaking out REALLY HARD about graduating, and all that it entails.

Eyelash Wishes

Pretty neat, isn't it? This is a sky in Ontario, over some unsuspecting farmer's field. I was visiting family there in August, and we were driving along looking at this amazing sky, right at dusk.

Well, here we are yet again. I'm not even going to say sorry for my long absence, I mean, let's get real... there's actually probably only two people in the world who read this.

Things are crazy, life is shifting in almost inexplicable ways that are terrifying, exhilarating, and incredible. I'm looking at the end of the tunnel... I have about half a year left until I'm done highschool, and then out into the wide open world. Eek!

Plus I'm dating, which is still just slightly incomprehensible to me. I mean... still coming to grips with the idea that a person can fit so well into your life and fill the gap that you had, while not actually being a part of you. Isn't it just slightly strange that people are engineered and programmed to be WITH another person? Wouldn't it just save time to give us that partner from square one? Then we wouldn't need to search so hard for that other "One" to give us the content completeness of knowing that all is well.

Then again, maybe if we had that always, we wouldn't value it as much... And, of course, we wouldn't have that absolutely delighted surprise of finding the "One". Maybe that's it... everything's there to gift us with the end result of someone loving us, and in order to be as happy as we are about it, we need to have the surprise of actually finding out that there is someone out there who wants to love us.

But... it's hard to worry about that tonight. I'm finding myself back in the grips of insomnia, humming along to lovely dreamy indie tunes.

There are certain songs that give me very strong "visuals" or touch sensations... "Such Great Heights" by Iron & Wine makes me think of transparent scarves and dandelion clocks... you know, the fluff that children blow away for wishes? And eyelash wishes that people pick up off your cheeks.

Oh boy. I'm rambling. Goodnight! I'll get back to you when I'm a wee bit more sensible.

Uh oh...

Oops! It appears that I've fallen behind in my updates... Oh well. I'll catch you up, as best I can.

I've been swamped in a rush of events and activities that I planned for work. Some have been really great, others... not quite so. For the most part, it's been going well.

A lot of my happiness these days comes from driving. I get more comfortable every day in my skills, even though I know I'm still not really ready for big city driving, I think I'm starting to get there. I love driving late at night, when there's no one on the road, and the world is entirely quiet... it's just me and some tunes, hitting the highway. Driving at night has a way of taking my brain and hitting pause on the inner monologue. I stop worrying about things to do, and whatever issue I'm working on, and let it all just get left behind in the dark.

Of course, it does always end up catching up to me... But it's after I park the car. I just love getting that time where my only awareness is on driving, and the road.

Other than that, things are alright. I get lonely every now and then of course, but I prefer being lonely to have everyone back home and crowding the house. I love being able to have people over any time I like and not getting bothered, and I love the time to myself... most of the time. There really are nights where I scare myself silly though, but usually I just crank up some music and chase all the shadows out of the house.

I've been seeing people plenty, though still not as much as I'd like... but that's been keeping me reasonably sane. I'm planning some fun trips for next week, so I'll let you know how it goes!

3 weeks until leaving for Ontario... who's excited?! (Imagine my hand shooting into the air... a la Hermione Granger.) - And if you people did not get that Harry Potter reference, you have no business reading this blog!